Pondering Future directions...

Ever feel like you've come to a crossroads without realising it? Or perhaps you've come to it in denial, and now can't deny that you're standing at the crossroads, and have to step over a line, THE line to move on?

I'm at that place in my life, and feel like I have to step over a line and move on, but it's gonna be a tough journey. I need God to give me the strength to make it thru and stick to the decision I have made.

Lots to think about, so much to process.

Had a meeting tonight, and it's brought a bit more clarity, and the freedom to express how I feel and what's really going on. I also got to hear things from the other 'side of the coin' so to speak, and that i'm sure will bring clarity in the days ahead. I heard some stuff I probably knew was coming, but didn't really want to hear, but i'm sure that the same was also true for the others. However, the one thing I need to do more than anything right now is give myself the time and space I need, to get back 'on top of things'. I've known I've been depressed for awhile now, but haven't been able to face it, but having 2 other people tell me that tonight was so real and so maybe 'freeing'? I'm not sure. I need to go to bed, and believe that I will sleep tonight, so if anyone actually reads this, you can be praying that I get some quality sleep.